Without Darkness, You'd Never See the Stars...

As I'm emerging from my weird three-month cocoon of work, grief, love, and life itself - I'm having a hard time "getting back to normal". It occurred to me this morning, that this is my new normal. My husband and I lost a very good friend in Ben, but thank you to Ben for giving me Kate-E, her sister Laura, and so many of his very good friends who have all come together to bond in our grief and in the loss of such an amazing human being. You were never a stranger to Ben, within 5 minutes - you were his friend. We should all be so lucky to have been one.

I am finally halfway through my first month of being uninjured at Crossfit and I have to admit, my thirty year old body is a little rougher around the edges and slower to heal than my twenty year old body. However, I have a beautiful thirty year old soul - and even on the days when my jeans are snug, and running hurts so badly that I want to just stop - I am thankful for it.

The end of the year and the holidays always brings to mind changes and the resolutions of a new year. I've made a few already - I want to run a mile 5 times a week to get over my utter and complete hatred of running. Most importantly, I want to be kind, and warm. I've been working on this one for awhile (thank you again, Ben). I make cookies for my trash guys and package them up and put them out with the cans every Wednesday. Because they are helpful to me, and I want to thank them for it. Some might argue - they're just doing their job. I remember saying when I worked at Dell that you never got kudos for "just doing your job"- but maybe you should. My lovely friend Dana is a stay-at-home mom of two. I give her mental kudos every day, as someone who gets super irritated when my dog gets needy - I absolutely could not do her job. She deserves the kudos and the cookies too. Maybe sometimes we just need to tell people that we admire what they do - or give them a big thank you for making your life better, no matter how they do it.

I've already decided to sign back up for the I Am Crossfit challenge again this year. I was injured halfway through it last year, and though I limped my way through it - I am determined to emerge victorious this year. I will be running, and finish with my arms in the air and my head held high - proud of DOING something I wasn't even sure i THOUGHT I could do.

A lesson for life - half of it is just showing up and being there.

Kitchen Tip #3

As you can tell - I do a lot of baking. I enjoy the look of total pleasure on someone's face when they're scarfing down a cookie or having a bad day, and then I swing by with a brownie. It's enough to make anyone smile. I've been baking since roughly third grade, so I've got a lot of trial/error knowledge to pass along :) Here's one cookie-changing tip.

Whenever you add something like chocolate chips or raisins, etc to a cookie, cake, bread - whatever. Toss it in a little all purpose flour first so they're just coated. This will help "suspend" them in the dessert so you won't end up with a cake with all the chocolate chips at the bottom, or a cookie with no visible chips on top!

Kitchen Tip #2

A second kitchen tip for your cooking pleasure! I bake a lot of cookies, but my chocolate chip cookies have been infamous among my friends for well, almost 15 years. One of my cookie tips-

Keep everything cold. Start by placing your cookie sheets in the freezer. Once your dough is prepared, place the entire bowl of dough into the refrigerator for at least 20 minutes.

In between batches, keep your cookie dough in the refrigerator. This will keep the edges from overcooking and burning. This happens because your cookie dough starts spreading and baking the moment it hits the hot pan - by cooling your dough and your cookie sheets, you'll avoid this.

Happy Baking!

Kitchen Tip #1

I've been bombarding you all with recipes, but did you know more than just recipes lives inside this cook's brain? I've learned a lot of tips over the years from Food Network, other cooks, my Gram, etc etc. Here's a tip for you.

Tired of onions making you cry? Stick your onion in the freezer for 10-15 minutes (bigger onion, more time) before you chop it up. You won't be covered in the juicy onion while you're chopping, or sobbing like The Notebook is on while you're trying to cook. :)

Happy chopping!